Mirror
I didn't need another push towards the edge
But you did it with a casual stance
My constitution my confidence
They left me when you did
And now I'm asking
Who Are You
I didn't need another push towards the edge
But you did it with a casual stance
My constitution my confidence
They left me when you did
I not the human that I could have been
Instead I gave my heart to a breathing machine
Where there's no heartbeat and I'm freezing
And you don't care
You just leave
I've been here before a room without a door
I'll Fight For Your Life
beautiful idiot why am I in love with you
Stupid joke did you in
Here we go again
And if your nose was bleeding I would tell you. It's a stupid party anyway. You'll always be stupid so I'll always be there.
I don't want to lose you
I just want to kiss you
I promise you I'll fight for your life all through the night. I promise you I'll fight for your life through the end of time. I promise you. I'll fight for your life.
We barely made it or alive
And now we're on a train tonight
A different city a different life
Will it ever feel right
Oh why am I complaining
Cuz this feels so right
Blood Under My Belt
what does it take for you to believe that I have changed I know very well that I have blood under my belt and yes it's true that I hurt you but I still love you I love you I still do.
And what did I say to make you want to run away. I know fucking well that I have blood under my belt. And yes it's true that I hurt you but I still love you I love you I still do. But you won't believe me.
I see death coming at me too quickly. I don't want this to end. I picked an apple from the tree we planted together. I hold it in my hand. I know I said change- but please don't change. I know I said do it - but don't do it don't do it.
I am scared of the child that lives in me. I don't know if he learns. You left your t-shirt under the bed we shared together. I put it over my face. I know I said change - but please don't change. I know I said do it but dont do it. Don't do it!
Heart Basel
Oh I feel the ocean in my head
Oh the pressures rising
And my heartbeat's speedin
And can u feel the tension
Crawling up your chest
Oh it's do or die kid like it's always been
Please call me and tell me that you want me
Cuz right now my life is getting pretty ugly.
And I want to share a cigarette and I want to go dancing in the rain. So call me and tell me that you want me and let's do it all again.
Oh the tropical weather , it must have softened your heart. But now we're back in California where the air is dry and your heart is closing up in plain sight.
And I question your love for me
You tell me to have confidence
I question your love for me
Cuz baby you don't make no sense.
Shoot Down The Sun
I woke up with your dress on
We had too much fun last night
It's the first time in a very long time
That a beautiful thought comes to mind
I put a blanket over my face
I put a blanket over my face
Shoot the sun down
I put a blanket over my face
Six dollars and cheap vodka was that all it took to unlock ten years of secrets?
When I was 16 yrs old I would think of someone who looked like you and smelled like you and talked like you do.
Head Of The Horse
shrink-wrapped magazines in a paper bag
He hugged me when I came home
Only boy in a ballet class. He hugged me when I came home. Dads on the pulpit talking bout love. Moms in the nursery cussing me out. He hugged me when I came home. Jean was crazy but she loved me when she died I slept in her car. He hugged me when I came home.
Here ... here we go again. All these memories coming back at me. Here here we go again all these memories get the best of me. Get the best of me.
Have a headache we'll grab the oil. If you complain well that's the devil talkin. He hugged me when I came home. Your sister got married 14 times but if you fall in love son - that's a crime. He hugged me when I came home. Well I fell in love and I told him I was happy. My dad hugged me and said this would be be last hug.
Phillip took me out for pizza in London. He said they were his friends and they weren't mine. Phillip took me for a walk in New York City. He told me my story was boring. He told me my story was boring.
Under The Ice
Im under the ice
my whole life
if you see my gently smiling baby
you should know I’m just trying not to cry
i see you skating by
you look strong you look full of life
i gather strength then change my mind
my heart goes dark
then i fall behind
we all get a chance at joy
did mine come and go
every morning i quit smoking
every night I’m bumming a light
how much longer do i have to wait
for you to come and burn a hole through my soul
i want skate on top with you
but its dark and its cold and I’m scared
Are You Fucked
I pulled up all the carpet in my room
i lay down on the concrete cuz i used to know you
know you know you
push down on my chest so i can’t breath
i ask for your hands and you gave me everything
everything everything
you were kind and i was cruel
now I’m lost
feel stupid too
I’m asking are you fucked cuz I’m feeling fucked
are you feeling fucked are you feeling fucked yeah?
i built a machine and it turned on me
i asked you to be what you couldn’t be
Your Tenderness
lately i have no faith in myself
i have nothing offered but myself
and i wake up and its lonely
and i think of you in that city
or your driving your car
and all of the things that we will do when you are back again
it keeps me alive
your tenderness is filling me with hope
your tenderness
your tenderness…
this world is a cold one
ill never understand
and i feel like I’ve been hiding all my life
sometimes i wish the sea would open up and take me
and then i think of you
and how you’re strong and how you’re delicate
and that makes it alright
oh if theres anyone who can mend my heart
well its got to be you
Rich Kids
i found a boy with a rusty car
he smokes a regional cigarette
factory workin
factory looking
factory kissing
factory doing
lost my keys in a parking lot
stumbled on the boy with a bad haircut
factory workin
factory looking
factory kissing
factory doing
Rich kids you make me sick kids
a bunch of dick heads
Rich kid you dont give two shits
you make me slit wrists
catch him with a truck tire under each arm
the same arms are huggin me through the night
factory workin
factory looking
factory kissing
factory doing
i like to drink orange juice then give him the glass
he happily washes it then kicks my ass
factory workin
factory looking
factory kissing
factory doing
When I see him smile every once in a while
every once in a while
his father will never know him and his mother thinks she loves him
the rich kids say he’s nothing
but they’ve got nothing on him
If We All Share Means Nothing
I climbed a mountain so i could see you coming
i dug a river to the sea so you could sink into me
and I’ve got somewhere to go but i wont go
if you say you love me
but its really obvious you’ll never love me
if all we share means nothing
then all my life is empty
and when i see you outside
i have to run inside and hide
we used to turn coal into stone and stone into gold
oh, you didn’t make it easy on me, baby
how do i say goodbye to something i loved so much
this boy i cradled in my heart closer than anything else
i know the dutch build damns but this time I’m the guilty one
Abysmal Thoughts
oh abysmal thoughts pushing me down to the ground
oh abysmal thoughts
oh beautiful thoughts where have you gone now
oh beautiful thoughts
take me away from this dark place
all i wanted was to love you
oh how could you do this to me?
who have i become?
is there no way to come back?
oh how could you do that to me?
abysmal, abysmal, abysmal….
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